It is 6.33 am in the morning and I can't live in peace without writing this post. This post might hurts your feelings, but it even more hurts my feeling if I didn't post this out.

You know, how can some people can make other people feel so bad being themselves?!??? Like they just knew that I killed someone but actually I just did nothing. Seems like you are going to complain or exaggerating or whatever that shit called for me being myself? This is me and this is my life, I am not going to be someone else and I am not going to be someone you want me to be. I'm sorry, but if I did wrong, tell me. Advice me. Don't talk behind me. Don't perli. Don't make me feel so bad being myself. Because you know, deep down it really hurts!

I said "I don't give a shit" a lot but damn why do I have to take this seriously?!??? Because this is not the first time you did this. I am begging you, stop making people feel so bad being themselves. You are not even close to perfect pun.



Things has been really different. I feel like I am not someone who I used to be anymore. So I guess, I am growing up right? I just want to be myself. Memang dari sekolah suka rebel, and now I just realized, I rebel for something I want it to be. I don't wanna be like everyone. If I can be like everyone, I am not special anymore. I want to be special. I want to make things different in my own way. And I'm still figuring out. You know, it's so hard to change to something better kan?