I am so scared of my future ahead. Either in this dunya or in akhiraah because both are really scaring. I know, we all tried to become the best human in dunya. Like we all tried so hard to become the best student; trying to impress everyone. Studying just for the sake of parents, just to impress them. Trying so hard to become someone else; you want basically everything your friends had even it's not a good thing. You push yourself to be an extraordinary human just for the sake of "like" on instagram and "retweet" on twitter. You judge people but at the same time you don't like being judged. You just wanted people to praise you. You just want people to say your personality are so cool. One word; pathetic. If you don't know why you are still breathing oxygen in this planet, you better gotta search the life manual; Holy Quran. Everything's in there. I am not perfect and i am still learning. I am still searching my true self. Life is like a hunger games; you just need to survive in the games (dunya) for a better next level (akhiraah). It sounds so simple but it is you to keep everything you do in istiqamah way. 

All i know is, i am not ready for future yet. I am growing up so fast man and 20 by next year is really a big number for me. Really. I don't wanna grow up because all i want to be is my daddy's favourite princess