Things are not going smoothly as we expected. I wish I can be happy all the time. I mean like I did happy but I don't want to be sick. I don't want people care too much to me until they don't care about me. Sometimes I smile but deep inside in my heart, it hurts. But since it abolishes my sins, I'm okay with that. I know everything happens for a reason and I know it'll make me more stronger. I'm not weak. I used to go to meet the doctor every time I'm home from hostel and come back with plastics of drugs /medicine/ but I know they just wanted to look my smile back. And at that moment I know who is really care about me.




7 months to go to finish my matriculation programme and I really can't wait for it. It's not about how bad the programme is but I can't cope with the schedule anymore and my immune system too. I know, I've been really weak these days. I know I've been lazy and keep playing around. I should start focus. 44 days to final exam and 3 days to mid term exam's results. I can't wish no more but a good results.